Mental health

tweety · Post edited by tweety at 2013-08-02 13:49:49

I'd like to share a tale about a recent experience if I may.

About four months ago I got into a relationship with a very spiritual lady. It was all about the Goddess and the Green Man, the rites of Spring, Beltane, Fire, Kundalini. Alchemy. We connected on a deep level. It was explosive stuff, we went on this mad journey across Britain following the Michael line, discovering man made and natural cathedrals to nature, meeting pilgrims, walking in healing pools, making potions with druids, united the springs and stones and stayed at Halloween Jacks. Blessed be and go well.

Towards the end of the holiday she kept talking about how she didnt see our relationship lasting beyond the holiday. I took a positive stance, rot and rubbish i said.

Anyway we got back and things seemed to get worse. Umbrage was taken to our time apart, I became aware of a cycle of praise and abuse. Things of course, came to a head, a weekend of breaking up, she protesteth. I withdraw. During the final throes she said

"I'm the sanest person you will ever meet"....

A week later I came home and my front room smelt familiar. Her perfume; it was on my hand where she had put it on the door handle. I burnt some incense.

In the following weeks gifts would appear in my front garden. A pressed flower. A miniature doll. a dropper bottle that contained a 'liquid'.

The most recent, a couple of days ago, was an ear of corn, slid meaningfully between the cradling branches of a laurel.

This afternoon I happened to be passing near mine in my car and saw her walking up the road, looping round i was able to observe here entering my front garden. I pulled up next to her and asked

"Do you mind?"

She answered

"I'm going now"

Halloween_Jack

^ Well, it was good to see you both, back in June, Tweety. Sorry to hear that relationship didn't work out.

The garden gifts do sound a bit... obsessive?

iuventus

That'a dames for you, tweetums.

chokka

This week I've been in a bit of a wilderness........ Things haven't made sense..... Sleep gone to pot... Comfort eating..... The self esteem bug bit hard on annight out.... Not sure what's going on lately....

Jozzy81

^ Hate comfort eating i'm sure i've put at least a stone in weight on... :-S

chokka

I'm heading that way..... Become phobic of the gym again....

Gotta shake this out....

thathurt

I need to stop buying kitkat chunkies. Then loose 2 stone. Wish there was comfort exercise. I never fancy it instead of snack food.

Hells_Bells · Post edited by Hells_Bells at 2013-08-05 07:44:35

Anyone seen the article on BBC News website about "Is England a nation on Anti-depressants?" I found it very patronising, inaccurate and totally unbalanced shite.
What's the point of singling out certain towns or areas of the country and saying "you live by the sea you shouldn't be depressed". Not one mention in that report that maybe it's to do with high unemployment, shop closures, lack of rejuvenation from their local councils, crime rates, etc.
That's a huge factor surely of why some areas are depressed because people have let them down eg. Government, local councils. Serves the NHS right if they consider this a burden they have to keep prescribing pills seeing as we pay £7.85 a time for this which is then ploughed back to the bloody government anyway! Fuckers.
The comments that are on their too have obviously been put on by smug bastards who live in fairy land and not had anything shit happen to them so what the fuck do they know with their puerile comments.
Sorry for rant but I find it offensive stupid BBC ~X(

The_Carpathian

Currently rolling between some horrible lows and some of the most manic rushes I've had in ages, sometimes in the same day/morning/afternoon. The last manic rush saw me out shopping and buying 17 blu-rays and 9 dvds.

Hoping that posting this acts as a cognitive reinforcement of acknowledging the feelings and therefore might help break the cycle a little. Took the chance to do so while straight enough to rationalise it!

chokka

Carpy have you been to your gp? Might be good to get input from services if veering between lows and highs is getting too much? :)

The_Carpathian

Part of me really wants to but the other part of me is worried in case he confirms anything.

I should, I know, but that doesn;t make it any easier to bite the bullet and do so.

chokka

Well I see where u r coming from but a diagnosis can help make sense of a situation and help you find coping strategies/treatment etc...

rewak

Agreed, actually being told, "Ok THIS is what's happening" is a relief in a way because it defines it, it lays it out in front of you so you can actually begin to make sense of it like chokka said. If you already feel somethings wrong, and i think you do, then don't you maybe think this feeling of not wanting it defined is actually a part of it, if you know what i mean? Like it's a protective mechanism for the issue itself, not for your well being.

Cervus · Post edited by Cervus at 2013-08-07 02:58:59

chokka said:
Well I see where u r coming from but a diagnosis can help make sense of a situation and help you find coping strategies/treatment etc...

rewak said:
Agreed, actually being told, "Ok THIS is what's happening" is a relief in a way because it defines it, it lays it out in front of you so you can actually begin to make sense of it

This makes a great deal of sense. My niece is going through a low patch she has had quite a few over the past few years and has now openly admitted that she self harms...we knew she did but it has taken a lot of strength for her to state it as fact. She has gone down the medication route before and sadly expected it to just start to work overnight (which from personal experience it doesn't) and has also said that she can't see the point in talking to a professional either as that will take too long too. I am sensing though that her feelings regarding that are waning and hopefully she will go and talk to her GP about getting some sessions started up. The fact that she has now admitted it to my sister is a massive step so fingers crossed all round. I just wish I could do more to help her but our hands are all tied and until she feels the time is right for her to seek help, all we can do it be there when she needs us.

iuventus

Sorry to crash the somber and serious atmosphere, but...BINGO!

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